You Always Reveal Yourself, Lord

I definitely have a love hate relationship with this here blog. First the hate part, because it is the simplest.

I HATE YOU BLOG!!
~Writing is one thing that I don’t always like to do. For me, it involves way too much thinking. Like Nike, I am much more of a "just do it" kind of person. I don’t like to really think things over and make sure everything sounds good and is in the right place. I would rather just type what is on my mind and that is the end of it. Writing is not one of my favorite things to do. But this blog here has been a real thorn in my side. I find myself reading and re-reading my blogs to make sure that they sound alright. Every time I have never been satisfied with the way my blogs flowed and how they sounded. But for some reason I would publish the blog how it was. Now if you know me, I never would normally do this. I am a perfectionist. Need I say more....?? If I am not satisfied with something I would either do it until I was totally and utterly content with what I have done, or I would quit all together and try again another time. Normally this never happens for writing, because I dislike it. I never think too hard about what I want to write, and if I do write something, I rarely ever will go through and make sure it sounds ok.

But I’m not just writing a blog because. I am writing to God. Man, can I even say that. Are my words even close enough to being worthy to write to God? In all my nothingness, God still loves me, and he accepts everything that I give to him, even my blogs. And that is the exact reason why I love this Blog....

Now the part that is a little harder to understand and a lot harder to write. Here is the love part.

I LOVE YOU BLOG!!
~Connecting and spending time with God is something that is hard for a lot of people to do. And trust me; I am right there with everyone on it. I find myself on fire, reading and eating up the gospel every free second I have in the day.

And life is GREAT!!!

But then slowly, since things are going so good, I start to lose myself and the direction I was going. And I take all that God has given me the past few days, and abuse it. I decide I can go out with friends tonight, and tomorrow morning I catch up on my reading. Then the morning comes, and since I am feeling so good, I decide I don’t need to read today because I don’t need it.....

Let me get back to what I was saying before I jump too far ahead of myself. See I love this blog. It is probably one of the greatest things that have happened to me my entire life. I’m scared of it. I don’t really ever know what I am going to write about, and I get scared because I don’t want to make a fool of myself in front of whoever reads what I write. Sometimes, days go by and I haven’t written anything. So I worry. Another day goes by, and I worry more. Nothing.... I have nothing to write when I worry. But then I take time to give everything and all my worries over to God. Surrender to him, and he provides. Just like he always does. I study. I read. I pray. I ask for advice from my mentors and friends. And then I write. Whatever God is telling me, I write it out. And it always works. Always.

That’s why I love this blog so much. It is teaching me something I never would expect from writing a blog. Surrender. Anything and everything. He is always there waiting to take over my life. And when he does... complete bliss. God is good.

Now, let me start back up with what I was talking about a few paragraphs up. You see the devil deceives. He lies. He tricks. That is what he is. And when you are close to God that is when you are most vulnerable to him. When you are close to God and you are reading his word you are growing in him. As you grow you start to see your life going great and things seeming to just happen and fall into place. It’s because the Holy Spirit is with you. Because God is finding joy in the fact that you are reading and learning his word (Psalm 1:1;2 How well God must like you .... you thrill to God's word, you chew on scripture day and night). You need to understand that the word is his son. The word is Jesus. And when you read Jesus, and learn from Jesus; you start to live like him. You start to become one with the universe and everything that is going on in it, and life flows. You are living a life as God intended. But as soon as you start to veer off the road and you stop reading and learning, the devil sees. And he knows that you are in an exposed part of life because he knows that we don’t understand why life is so easy. But now you do. It’s because of the word. It’s because the word is Jesus. And as soon as we understand that, Satan won’t have a weak spot to attack. Just remember next time you feel good, and remember God.

Praise our lord for everything, because that is what he has given us.

Tonight I wanted to write. I wanted to say something to the world to help them grow closer to God. I wanted to show people how amazing he was. I didn’t know what to write until I was looking around my computer. There is an option that is on everyone’s computer. It lets you hide and folders that you want hidden from people just looking around on your computer. And until you enable you computer to show the hidden files, it looks like nothing is there. Well I had an old journal as one of these hidden folders. When I enabled the option to show me the hidden files, there it was. And when I opened it this was one thing that I found. And I knew God wanted to share it with everyone....

God
You are my God
I shout your name as loud as I can from mountain peaks
Because I want the world to know about your love
How sad it is that people live without knowing why they are living

God
Give me strength to help them
Give me the wisdom to show them the truth
Use me as a warrior for your kingdom
Give me power to strike down sin, and defeat wretched demons

God
Your praise drips from my lips like water from icicles on a warm winter day
Who am I to want anything in life
All I should devote my life to, is praising you
I worship you with everything I am

God
You are my God
But I will share you with the world


Dear Lord,
You are so good.....